Twins!!

Recently, I found out that I was pregnant. I took two pregnancy tests that came back positive and went in to the Bowling Green Pregnancy Center, and they said I was pregnant. I had an Ultrasound in Toledo, Ohio and guess what? (: Their were two little beating hearts. That was March 30Th, 2012. That's the day I found out that I was having twins. I am now about 9 weeks pregnant, and super excited and so happy. Yet, then again I'm terrified because I'm tiny and having two. It's a scary thing to experience, yet I'm really excited, and still with the daddy(: Thank God he's still here with me and by my side. (:

Stay Strong and Smile

Life may be hard here and there, but you can't let that put you down. Putting yourself down will just make things much worse in the end. Sometimes, we can't help ourselves., what with our feelings and all. Many people hold what they feel inside, I do the same. However, it's no easy way out. For me, I dont usually like speaking my mind, so I stay quiet but then again, I always need someone to talk to once in awhile. So, if you ever need someone to talk too.., talk to someone that you trust. It'll be okay. Just think positive. Keep your head up and walk around with a big ol' smile on your face. (:

Life isn't always so easy.

Life's hard, end of story. Nobody ever said that it would be easy. Because it isn't. And not just for me but for anyone. Life is full of so many crazy mysteries. There are good times and there are bad..even sad. People don't always have it easy. Other's struggle more and even other's don't. It's not simple. It never is. Life is like a story because in my opinion, I think that everyone has a story to tell. There are so many roads going in and out of life. Depending on which road you take, that's the road that will lead you down your path. Not goin to lie but I've taken a bad path my entire life, and to this day... I've changed so much it's entirely crazy, however, I still struggle. And it still isn't perfect. There's my point to be exact; Life isn't perfect, and people aren't perfect. Nobody and nothing is. I struggle from day to day but I always keep in mind that everything will be okay. Right now, it's not all okay, but I still pray to God every other night and I wish for it to be.. So I guess all there is to do now is wait and see where my bad times take me and actually do something about it.

Nate Baxter(:

Nate C. Baxter; I met him towards the end of November through a good friend of ours, David Wiseman and well theres more to it but its a whole story that I'll tell someday. The night after I met him, I texted him and we started talking and then hanging out and so much more. We started dating on December 7th, 2011. I still remember his words that he said to this day, "You had me at hello". (: Something like that, anyhoo Nate is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I'm definitely glad that I met him. He's amazing in so many different ways. And he's the most important person in my entire life next to others as well. I love everything about him, especially the way he treats me. He's respectful and honest, faithful and loving and he cares. He treats like a princess. He loves me for me and for who I am and he never judged me once for my past, and thats what got me. Everyone has always judged me, but he didn't. He was different and still is. I fell in love with him, it may have been all too soon and super duper fast, but I really do love him and would do absolutely anything for him. I think I'd fall apart big time if I ever lost him. He means the world to me and I pray to God almost every other day that Nate and I will last and will always work things out. Everyone has their ups and downs and tough times, but you just got to keep your head up and keep going, work it out. (: My momma and I used to talk when I was younger about Cowyboys and how cute they were.. Lol. Well, now at Nineteen years old, I've got my cowboy. And I'm not going anywhere, just like he promised me the same. I love you baby, with all of my heart. Always, and Forever. (:

Cherish your Memories

Friends will always be there for you in the end, no matter what. br />

Good memories are something that you will always want to remember and cherish. It's something that you want to remember to make you smile and happy. Your living in the moment once it happens anyhow.

Live for yourself. Not for anyone else. Be happy with who you are and who you're becoming.

It's Never too Late to Change.

"Every story has an end,

but in life every end is

just a new beginning".
Sometimes things always happen for a reason. Good things and maybe even bad things; but that's just how life works. For everyone. If your ever going down a bad path, it's not too late to ever change. It's never too late. I used to think that it was the entire time; But I mean.. Look at where I'm at now. I'm still standing and still living my life. It may not be good all the time and I may struggle and stress a lot, But I'm still here walking this earth and changing my ways. I've got a whole family behind me supporting me and whole bunch of friends too that help me get through my struggles. Now, I would have denied that before because I thought that I had absolutely nothing and no one there for me. But I've realized a lot these past few weeks and learned a lot as well. My little sister Aleisia texted me today and told me that I've got a whole life ahead of me.. I never ever honestly thought that she would say those words to me. I've done so many bad things throughout my life and I'm supposed to be the oldest of all my siblings, they're supposed to look up to me. They never did. But Aleisia told me that today, which caught me off guard but also gave me the most happiest feeling hearing her say that. My family means a lot to me and now I know that they will always be there for me. Same goes for my friends. I love all ya'll. <3

Much Stronger than I have ever been.

He didn't even pay his time, not even a single little dime.

He walked round this earth every day in the shining sun,

while I sat around getting nothing done.

I wasted my life, my childhood in the background behind bars; sat there

starin at a wall everyday, blaming myself all because he just didn't pay.

If only he knew how bad he hurt me, but no.. He doesn't even see. Doesn't

even realize. I learned to blame myself, and say it was my fault; Still

believe that it is. I wasted all that I could have lived, till I finally

realized that hes out in the world living while I was doing absolutely

nothing. I'll never forget those images, those bad memories.. But I do know

now that I'm standing strong and tall, I'm living my life right in front

of his eyes.. Maybe now he can see that he's finally hurt me but also has

made me much stronger than all he's done and all the hell I put myself

through.