It's Never too Late to Change.

"Every story has an end,

but in life every end is

just a new beginning".
Sometimes things always happen for a reason. Good things and maybe even bad things; but that's just how life works. For everyone. If your ever going down a bad path, it's not too late to ever change. It's never too late. I used to think that it was the entire time; But I mean.. Look at where I'm at now. I'm still standing and still living my life. It may not be good all the time and I may struggle and stress a lot, But I'm still here walking this earth and changing my ways. I've got a whole family behind me supporting me and whole bunch of friends too that help me get through my struggles. Now, I would have denied that before because I thought that I had absolutely nothing and no one there for me. But I've realized a lot these past few weeks and learned a lot as well. My little sister Aleisia texted me today and told me that I've got a whole life ahead of me.. I never ever honestly thought that she would say those words to me. I've done so many bad things throughout my life and I'm supposed to be the oldest of all my siblings, they're supposed to look up to me. They never did. But Aleisia told me that today, which caught me off guard but also gave me the most happiest feeling hearing her say that. My family means a lot to me and now I know that they will always be there for me. Same goes for my friends. I love all ya'll. <3

Much Stronger than I have ever been.

He didn't even pay his time, not even a single little dime.

He walked round this earth every day in the shining sun,

while I sat around getting nothing done.

I wasted my life, my childhood in the background behind bars; sat there

starin at a wall everyday, blaming myself all because he just didn't pay.

If only he knew how bad he hurt me, but no.. He doesn't even see. Doesn't

even realize. I learned to blame myself, and say it was my fault; Still

believe that it is. I wasted all that I could have lived, till I finally

realized that hes out in the world living while I was doing absolutely

nothing. I'll never forget those images, those bad memories.. But I do know

now that I'm standing strong and tall, I'm living my life right in front

of his eyes.. Maybe now he can see that he's finally hurt me but also has

made me much stronger than all he's done and all the hell I put myself

through.

My Freedom.

Im finally beginning to live life good; Not on the run,

Not on the streets, nor in the Hood.

I've realized I've got alot and so much more,

I know I'm definitely not done. Letting things go isn't always easy,

but its life and things happen for a reason. You've got to let go and

move on to live happy once again. I may have struggled here and there, but

I lived. And yes, I definitely made it. No more trouble, just going to live

and be me. I hope that theres a change that people will actually see. Off

probation and parole,

walkin down these roads, I'm actually Free.

I went from being in and out of jail and programs,

from being off and on house arrest, going to parties and overdosing numerous

times, fighting every day and coming up with more and more charges.

Sleeping on streets and having no where to go, running from everyone and

pushing people away, learning to sell drugs and almost turnin tricks. ..

I wasn't me. Went from joining a gang; my supposably new family and

letting go. Raped and molested. Yeah, that was me. Ending up breaking the

law; got on probation and parole. Went from all that; my past.. to where I

am today. I've realized that I may be stronger than I'm thinking. Than I've

ever thought even though at times I may still be in denial. I'm me and thats

the best that I can be. Now I'm Free!

So judge all you want, cause it ain't gonna bother me.

Growing up isn't always so Easy.

Lifes been bad for me ever since I was a kid; Walked around angry and mad,

thats all I ever did. First time sitting in a cell being behind bars,

I realized I had a story to tell. Lookin out of that little window that

night; I knew from then on that that was my life. I lived a life full of

trouble and hate; started stayin out and comin in late. Started out fightin,

then with gangs, I let myself go completely and lost who I was. Been in and

out of jail, with no bail. Sent off to programs; couldn't run, couldn't

hide. Figured I was done; Couldn't even listen to the rules and abide.

Broke the rules and didn't do what I was told; Didn't care, I did what I

wanted. I've been hurt all my life, not knowing what to do or who to go to.

I felt betrayed by my family, sorry to say.. They put me in and out of jail;

and I was always on my way. Met new friends each and every other day, but

once they knew the real me; they didn't understand. They didn't see. They

dropped me like I was nothing, said I was worthless and nothin but trouble.

People judged me for the way that I lived my life; People don't understand

how lifes not perfect, Nobody is. I was put down alot by family and friends.

Bullied in school as a kid; because of me being who I was. Felt at a loss;

had nobody there kind of like they didn't even care.. Joined a gang at

fifteen and made a mistake; I wanted out but there was nothing to do. And I

thought it'd be a piece of cake, but no it wasn't so easy. I lived in hell,

every other week I was locked in a cell. At times, I'd run from cops; was

scared and didn't want to be caught; wanted to hide. Eventually I was found

with a new lesson learned and I was taught. Life wasn't easy. Never is.

Still isn't. Few times here and there; overdosed on pills, I wanted a way

out, there was never a doubt. I wanted to stop livin, but God wanted me

here for a reason So I'm still standing. He saved my life and gave me a

purpose.

Life Itself.

Life's a mystery. Many things happen for a reason; But nobody knows why. People make mistakes here and there just like I make my own. But there is absolutely no reason to judge. Because nobody is perfect. Everyone has there own life to live; and everyone chooses how to live it. Each and everyone of us human beings point our lives in many different directions and depending on which direction we take, that is where life itself will take us along the way. How I said that, "Nobody is Perfect".. well life isn't perfect either. Its what each and everyone of us make it. All people live differently than others. Some of us struggle and some of us don't. We all have a purpose to life; that's why we were brought here. However, it's up to each of us to find that purpose. You don't have to do it alone and nobody said that it was going to be easy. It's life. Sometimes people like to wonder why certain things happen to them; I know because I wonder that all the time. But everything happens for a reason. That's just the way it is. That's life itself.